Well I am down to 11 stone 1 / 11 stone 2 but I can not openly and honestly say that I have perhaps lost this in the most healthiest of ways. In a previous post I had already mentioned that I suffer from anorexia and bulimia and this is somewhat playing a main role in my life again at the moment, so although I am losing the weight I know could very easily put it all back on again if I went back to my healthy eating lifestyle. I know that I have lost some inches on my waist because I am now able to fit comfortably into a pair of size 14 smart black trousers. This is a nice factor for me because it makes me feel more comfortable in my own body and only drives me further to carry on with losing the weight. But I also know I need to get my head into gear.
I am planning on trying some of the new diet stuff that has become a popular hit in america at the moment. This being the javita coffee. I have discovered that the UK have now produced there own brand of the stuff and have located myself a distributor so hopefully will be ordering myself some next week. I have also identified a key area for me to work on now, my thighs. I think when exercising a lot of us actually forget that the thighs need a good work out and actually not a lot of people know how to tone them up, so this morning I did my own little bit of research and found some fun exercises to do. Most of them consist of lunges and weights but look like something I can do after my eight hour shift at work. I want some nice toned looking legs so need to start working on that.
The other area that I really want to work on is my tummy and the spare tire area, but I still have yet to find some exercises that are fun and yet work, for these areas but at least that gives me some things to research later on tonight. But what I really do is kick up on the eating. recently I have only been eating one meal a day or just small snacks throughout the day, as well as cutting down my fluid intake or purging when I do feel I have over eaten. as a result my face is a mass of red blotches and broken blood vessels and I am light headed quite often which means I need to get my blood tests redone to check the good old potassium levels and also get some multivitamins into my body to make up for what I am not having.
I know why my head is doing this and I know that a lot of people still believe I should not be focusing on the weight lost. But they also forget my illness shall be with me all my life, its not soemthing that will go away, its going to be a struggle at some point in my life no matter what. but I have to be strong...after all christmas is only around the corner and thats going to be a big fat struggle of its own. but I can do it right?
